going and going

This is me blogging again. Certainly there must be something to write about from the last 9 months. Yet nothing extraordinary stands out. Life is just kinda going by.

I did have expections about employment 6 months ago that made me think I would finally have my act together financially. But my plans have been twarted, again. This is a far more typical result than plans actually going through.

So I wait, as usual, for life to move forward. But for some reason, I actually feel pretty good about my efforts right now. I feel like I am doing most of what i can to move things in a desired derection, and I am at the mercy of the world around me to see things go from here. This perspective is very new, as i have always felt a pressure that I am not doing enough, and I am to blame for things being what they are.

Maybe I'm learning humility and starting to understand I don't have all that much control and power. Who freakin knows, right? It's just different, and I'm pretty cool with it. I spending less time worrying about where things are going, and more time grabbing the opportunities I have(or see).

So be it. Life goes on, and in my life devoid of any serious responsibility, I can keep going like this forever. Maybe whenever something forces me to grow up, I will.