stream of conscious

Just write. Don't think. Don't edit. Let it flow, from your head. Don't fix punctuation. Don't fix spelling. Spell check will fix spelling. Let the world in on the freeflow of your mind. Don't say anything profound. Maybe say something profound. Don't try to say something profound. You can't go back and make it profound. If there is something profound, let them hunt for it. Let someone else find it among the wreckage. You just keep typing. Keep rambling. See where it gets you. Stop talking about rambling and ramble. Look around you. What do you see? Mostly darkness. That's not a metaphor. It's actually dark in here. It's dark out there. Why are you up so early? Cause you have something to write. I have something to write? Yeah. This. Profound. Thing. I just edited that last sentence. OK, fine, that's your one edit for whole thing. This is a stream of conscious. No going back. But I love to edit. I know you do. I make lots of errors. Many times I write don't when I mean do and stuff like that. I may have to look at it 5 times to catch myself. Now if I write the wrong thing, it's stuck there. Forever. I can't handle forever. Right now I can't even spell it. Thank goodness for spell check. This is getting crazy. Could I hold a thought. No, you weren't ever really good at concentration. I know. I think sometimes I am. Sometimes I get really focused on something. I get locked in. Honed in. I like honed better. Can I go back and change locked to honed? Not today you can't. I really think the people don't want to read about my desire to swap words. They just want the good words. The final product. It's so hard to be eloquent like this. I really can't get over how porrly i'm spelling right now. That's it. I'm leaving the spelling errors too. I'm letting it all go. No perfecting. NO revisionist history. I didn't mean to capitalize both letters in no there. Now it seems more forceful. The people need to know it was orignalyy intended to be a softer, more subtle no. Do the people really need to kow that? Do they care? What do people care about? And who are these people? And who are you? And who am I? You are you and so am I. Then why ...oh ...that's awkward. I don't think I wanted to start that sentence that way. See, I had a different question and now it's gone. Lost. In oblivion. I can't go back. But you know what? I don't want to go back. What's said is said. I can't change it. Well, this I clearly could change. But lets say I was eching in stone. I really missed on that speling. Anyway. I couldn't erase in that situation. I could destroy my stone tablet sure. But then i'd be starting from scratch and have essentially wasted hours, maybe days. How long does it take to etch something in stone? I don't konw. I wasn't there. I guess I could still do it. I dont' have to back in time. I've seen stones. Right here in the present. Present has multiple meanings, but are they both spelled the same? I narrowed it down from multiple to just two in the middle of that sentence. Wanted to clear that up. But what if there is a third? Now i'm little worried i'm forgeting one. Or many. I appologize to the word present for not knowing more about it. At least not remembering more about it at 5:38 am on a saturday. I could be sleeping. But thw world definitely needs this rambling. So I guess it's best I'm awake to share. At what point do people give up on reading something like this? It can't be too long, right? Cause I',m pretty sure it's hard to follw. There aren't even paragraphs. And look at that spelling. So many red squiggly lines. The people won't see the lines though. They'll be gone when you post this. Good. Maybe they will miss some. Maybe they won't think it's all that bad. You don't really care what they think, do you? Not at this particular moment, no. At other moments. Way too much. It's unhealthy. Mayube. You don't really know. No, I don't. Maybe it's perfectly healthy. You ever think of that? Yeah, I guess it could be. Fine. I admit I don't know. Good. It's settled then. What's settled? Settled that I dont know? Yes. Exactly. Great. Who said exactly and then who said great? Should I put “i said” or “you said” after each statement? Obviously, the quotes would actually be around the statement and not the I or you said. You didn't have to explain that. The people already know how quotes work. Not kids. There are some young folk that don't got it down yet. You really think they are going to be reading this? Yeah, you are right, they probably shouldn't. This is not the document to learn to write from. You can say that again. Thanks, but I won't. I think i've gone on long enough here, no need for more repeating. Hey, you know what? What? This goes way faster when you don't stop to think or edit. It's 5:47 and you think you are done already. Usually, it'd be 10:00 by now. Or it'd be days later. You should face all of life edit free. No thanks. I think this is maybe enough. Just a small taste of chaos in my mind. And really, this still proably isn't that indicative of all the bouncing thoughts in there. But I tried. As hard as one is trying that isn't thinking things through or adjusting them. Ok, well, this should probably be the end. I'd like to tie it back somehow, but I don't really remember what I started with. I'm trying to think of it. But this is only going to lead to many more sentences of ramblings before I remember. Oh, but I really do want to tie it up nicely. You need to let that go. But I swear its right there, on the tip of my tongue. I can do this. That's not the point. You are supposed to not do it. Well, technically, I am supposed to do whatever and if that so happens to tie things up, so be it. OK, fine. You win. Except you still can't remember. So you lose. Damn. Alright. It'll end here then. This is more than enough. Oh, this abrupt stop is hard. Can I at least say bye or something? Yes. You can do whatever you want. You just can't take it back once you've done it. So think about it first. But I can't. This is a stream of conscious. The one thing I can't do is think first. Good point. Also, there is more than one thing. Shut up. You get my point. I do. Good. Hey, you are dozing off. And not writing everything you are thinking again. So sorry. I'll try better. No I wont' cause this is the end. I'm out. Bye. Still feels abrupt.