I seem to have writers block more often than not anymore. Fortunately I written plenty over the years to fill this blog with. So, here's something I wrote about a year ago.

Time in the dark has created fear. And fear has
started winning. It’s always there, but it doesn’t
always control me. I hate the idea of it controlling
me. So much so, that many times I will do exactly what
I am afraid of just to spite it. Just to win. Me and
my damn competitiveness! Consequently, I don’t always
make the wisest decisions.

I’m unsure of the basis of my decisions at this point
in life, because I don’t trust my decision making
ability. Yet, decisions must always be made. I
definitely surf through a ton of wild ideas, but I try
not to make any major decisions. Sadly, I don’t trust
my ability to decipher which decisions are major. So I
must just be operating on instinct and second nature.

I’d like to avoid pain, and I think this influences my
decisions, but I try not to let it. It’s not that I
crave suffering, but I don’t think pain is a good
indicator of poor decision making. But maybe with a
little wisdom some pain can be avoided.

This brings us back to risk. Where is the balance
between being wise and stepping out?

Maybe safety is wise, but security is wrong. Wearing
my seat belt is wise. Properly operating a table saw
is wise. But protecting myself from a potential mugger
by always staying in the good neighborhoods is wrong.
Maybe it’s as simply as being wise and being safe from
human error and accidents, but not living in fear of
man and instead trusting God. So help out a stranger
in need regardless of the potential risk.  God will
protect you.

Of course this is not always the case. And many a well
intentioned man has died at the hand of another. Does
that justify security? Were they just not trusting
God? Or do the results not matter? Jesus’ disciples
died at the hands of men, but clearly were called to
preach the Word. Maybe being secure will grant a man a
long life. But it could be at the expense of his
calling.  

this is a blog

though not much of a blog. But the people wanted a blog. So here it is. Read and enjoy. When finished, read again. Remember to check back daily as this blog will probably never be updated. But you don't know unless you check. Or I guess if you've got one of them fancy blogline things. That kinda ruins the surprise though, doesn't it? I don't envy your flavorless life. I'm bored with this thing already. Go read a book.